Recently, I had a tough day. A really tough day. My heart was overwhelmed. I was frustrated – mostly with me.

You know how they say that when you see an iceberg floating in the ocean, it is only a small evidence of something huge under the surface. It’s the proverbial “tip of the iceberg”.

On that day, someone sort of gave my little iceberg-tip a slight shove. And then IT happened. The whole thing capsized. I knew there was a colossal glacier under there, so it was no surprise to me. But it was still hard to see and admit to it.

I was so frustrated with myself – tired – of desiring things that I cannot have. Of failing where I should succeed. Of not being truly satisfied in Christ the way I know I can and should be.

I cried. I laid it out before the Lord. I asked for mercy.

And then, that very evening, someone that I greatly admire said…

“Every struggle I’ve had in life has come when I have had more than One Desire.”

One Desire.

I knew it was true. I have desires competing with Lord almost everywhere I look. He IS my greatest Desire. But there is so much competition in this heart of mine. And there is so much struggle.

I know in the deepest part of my heart…that in finding Christ I find all things.

My dad said something really meaningful to me tonight. He pointed out that Scripture says, Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Its a promise. My God is not going to go the other way. He will draw near to me. And the drawing near to Him part, that is a work of His Spirit too. That’s how good our God is……..

My dear sisters and brothers, may He be your One Desire. May He be mine…

10 Responses

  1. Katie Says:

    Thanks for your sincerity. It’s a good reminder… sometimes we get so busy with the doings, we forget to just sit (SIT!) at the feet of the one who we’re doing the ‘doings’ for. Love you, and I’m praying for ya. ;-)
    Keep smilin’!

  2. Mellie-Malloo Says:

    Aww, Perky…Thanks.
    Thank you for sharing…
    and for loving Jesus…
    and for showing your desire for HIM…
    AND for being you!!!

  3. Josh Wychopen Says:

    Perky, I’m praying for you. Someone that I love a lot once told me, “Just having the desire to want Jesus and wanting to grow in Him has to count for something.” Keep the Son in your eyes! Trying to be a better brother…

    PS all, I saw a rainbow yesterday… :)

  4. eperkins Says:

    “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases. His mercy never comes to an end. They are new every morning, new every morning. Great is Thy faithfulness, oh Lord! Great is Thy faithfulness.”
    Much love,

  5. Kevin Says:

    Thanks Sarah. That hit home.

  6. Erin Says:

    Wow Sarah, beautiful thoughts!!!! Thank you for sharing them with us….God is using you sis…in so many ways!!!! Love you SO much!!!!!

  7. Catherine Says:

    Thank you my dear wonderful sis for saying just the right thing. I love you so much! I can’t wait to see you today. I missed you while we were away for the weekend.

  8. Mellie-Malloo Says:

    ACK!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

  9. Angie Says:

    Sarah, thank you for being so transparent. I can hardly imagine “Miss Perky” struggling in any way – but I know you do. Everyone does. And it is encouraging to hear others share and relate to our struggles and God’s faithfulness through them. You are a jewel, and I enjoy your site so much. So many people are touched and encouraged by your life, and I hope that YOU will also be encouraged and uplifted today. :-)

  10. Erin Says:

    I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Annnnnd, I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just thought you should know!!!!!!!!!! :-D

    “I thank my God for YOU!!!!!”