If Only

Have you ever had a bad case of the “If Only’s”? It’s a terrible affliction. A gal can have this disease of the heart with no outward evidences while inside she aches:

If only I were here… If only I were there… If only I were married… If only I had more friends… If only I could communicate better… If only more people understood… If only I was more diligent… If only I had more money… If only I had more time… If only I weren’t so tired… If only I had a different love language… If only I had a different personality… If only…if only I weren’t HUMAN…

If only [fill in the blank], THEN…everything would be different. THEN…everything would be better.

I’ve suffered from this affliction many times. It can sneak up on an unsuspecting girl in a moment and then hang on for dear life.

And every single time, the cure is the same. The answer is the same. The truth never changes.

The Cure: Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face.

The Answer: Christ is everything. “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” (John 10:10)

The Truth: Life is in Christ. There is nothing good in me. His grace is sufficient. His strength is perfect.


The Lord says “Abide in Me.” He tells us that we will undergo pruning. He says that if we love Him, we will keep His commandments. And why? Because He is thinking of me…

“These things I have spoken unto you, that My joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.” (John 15:11)

My joy. The God of all Creation is concerned for MY JOY. He desires it in me. He is glorified through MY JOY. He wants me to know His fullness, because He knows that in HIS FULLNESS, I will be complete and satisfied and content and whole and rested and……


“But Father, I am lonely. Father, I am afraid. Father, I am a mess with a capital ‘M’.”

Yesterday afternoon, I found a park in Tyler – me, my Bible, a warm mocha. Just for me, the grass was a refreshing spring green. Just for me, the sky was cloudless. Just for me, the temperature was in the 60’s. And just for me, decades ago, someone planted a tree for me to lean against in just the right spot.

And just for me (ok, for you too), the Lord left a Love Letter…He said:

“Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me (John 14:1)… And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter [Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, and Standby] that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. (John 14:16-18)…“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”


My God shall supply all your need. Seems as though I am needing a lot these days. On the outside, I have no needs – not a one. But inside is a different story. I am finding with certainty that nothing but Christ alone satisfies. Anything else just leaves you…hungrier, emptier.

My God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. What do you need today? What is your heart missing? Where are you looking to have your needs met?

Look to Christ, my friends. There is none other…


“Loneliness is your friend when it forces you to enjoy God’s friendship.”

What a Friend we have in Jesus…

3 Responses

  1. Mellie-Malloo Says:

    Thank you for sharing the truth God is teaching you, Sarah. I know this is going to be a life-long lesson for me…

  2. Ana Marie Ort Says:

    Well said, Sarah. What a wonderful God we serve!

  3. Eden Says:

    So true, this verse helped me the other day when I felt my heart wandering. “And God remembered Hannah.”

    Just think……He takes the time to just simply remember me.